“What Am I Doing?”

It’s crazy how sure you can be of something and then some doubt slips in and can cause a spiral. Lack of sleep doesn’t necessarily help, and from what I’ve learned, jet lag wrecks my mental health. And by that I mean the irregular sleep and eating schedules two things I often neglect while traveling. I spent a lot of today thinking that maybe with the time I should have done something I’ve never done before, pursued a new experience. A mini freak out. Being alone with your thoughts can be peaceful but also chaotic depending on your state of mind. However a little time near the ocean of San Sebastián allowed me to clear my mind a bit. It’s nice how the waves have the ability to ground you like that. I flew into Madrid yesterday body wrecked from the red eye flight and took a train this morning to San Sebastián. Tomorrow I take a 20 minute bus ride to Irún where I’ll start my pilgrimage. I was hoping the two days of rest before would be enough to somewhat reset my biological clock, or at least get the doubts out of the way.